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December 25th, 2010 (06:59 pm)
bored

current mood: bored
current song: tv playing

I officially suck at updating. But since I'm here, and I actually have an urge to do this, Happy Holidays everyone. Xmas was held, with the brother and my dad, and it was good. Not the same without mum of course, but still good. A transition that needed to happen. If that makes sense.

The past couple of weeks have been stressful, and it's honestly been a bit hellish. I've become a worrier lately, and there's a bit of business going on with a telemarketing things I got scammed by that is worrying me. I'm fortunate that my credit is good, and I really, really don't want it to get hurt. I just wish my dad would let me pay the bill. I dunno. It is a scam though. But what's worrisome about it is that they sent it to a debt collector. It's all very my life.

I really hope my life starts working out soon.

Jen [userpic]

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November 21st, 2010 (01:58 am)

eep. have i really not updated in this long?

soon. I promise.

but now, bed

Jen [userpic]

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September 27th, 2010 (03:41 pm)
calm

current mood: calm

So it's the end of September, I can't believe the year is going by so quickly, and as I always will, I miss my mum. I don't even want to think about what the rest of the year has in store for me, after the crazy stuff that's happened in these 9 months so far.

I think that's why I'm content to just...live for a while, for lack of a better term. I read comments and posts from people being discontent with their lives, or hoping or wishing they had more, and I guess I just feel...disconnected from that. I think it's because for now, I'm happy to just be living, and to be something that might resemble happy. Jen=not very ambitious at the moment. And ok with that. And whatever that means.

In random news, I'm getting a cold. I'm an not happy about this.

Jen [userpic]

technology can be annoying.

September 4th, 2010 (02:09 am)
annoyed

current mood: annoyed

wtf is with this twitter/facebook thing? If I wanted to post something there, I post it there. Good thing there aren't very many people who read this. Still think I'm going to turn off anon comments though, just in case.

Jen [userpic]

i feel like my life is now a bad experiment I can't wake up from.

August 26th, 2010 (12:53 am)
calm

current mood: calm

I miss my mom.

I plan on posting something something substantial soon, but i can't type tonight.

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July 30th, 2010 (01:06 am)
indescribable

current mood: indescribable

My mum died on the 23rd.

It was sudden, and I'm sure I'll post about it here.

I don't know when that will be though.

I hope everyone is well

Jen [userpic]

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July 16th, 2010 (02:05 am)
blah

current mood: blah

tired...things have been busy, hence the lack of updateness.

Hand is healing well. It's in the last stage of peeling, if that makes sense.

Dad had back surgery on a herniated disc in his spine friday. He's doing good, and much to my surprise, actually taking it easy.

After a long period of stability, things have gotten...stirred up with mum, so to speak. But that's bit of a long story for another time...

Jen [userpic]

OUCH

July 6th, 2010 (02:03 am)
sore

current mood: sore

Today, I splashed boiling water on my right hand. I can't describe how much it hurt. I'm right handed too, so it has made life...interesting today.

I had more to say, but now that I'm typing, I can't seem to put it on the page, so to speak(type?)

Oh well...

Jen [userpic]

I have been neglecting you, dear journal, but I return with beautifulness

June 17th, 2010 (01:20 am)
bored

current mood: bored

LJ world, meet fluff aka Fluffy, fluff kitten, most adorable, etc, (we aren't the most original with naming animals at my house...)





Jen [userpic]

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May 30th, 2010 (01:27 am)
awake

current mood: awake

So, my life has been going just swimmingly since I last updated.

Migraines, root canals, and newly diagnosed lactose intolerance have made life fun.

I'm probably going to need a crown on the tooth I had a root canal on. And since my shitty (like seriously, super shitty) dental only covers 1 cleaning a year, I'm going to have to shell out over a thousand bucks on one tooth. Add this story up with my bum toe, and the lesson you can learn? If something bad happens, and you know you need to see a doctor about it? Frickin go to a doctor. It's not worth it.

Also found out I'm lactose intolerant. Which has been strange. On one hand, it is a huge relief to actually have something wrong, as weird as it sounds. It's a validation I guess. It's like "wow! it's not all in my head! there really is something wrong" After a couple years and a lot of failed medications from my doctor it begins to feel like I'm exaggerating, or making it up.

My temper has been on the edge lately too. Mum and I have gotten into it. We had a big fight this evening. Part of me feels guilty, but...I just can't help myself.

I need a break.