I hate how one little thing, or one little conversation can completely alter my mood. I feel like I should have more control over myself than that.
I also hate how I apparently signed myself up for something that comes along with a bunch of restrictions on how my life is going to go completely unintentionally. I was only trying to help out, not give my life over to something.
I guess I should just shut the fuck up and see the good. I'll find it somewhere. I feel selfish as hell when I feel like this.